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Life has not always been easy. When I think of all its disappointments and clever acts of humiliation there are a few moments that come to mind. I am reminded of an ill conceived late night facebook post in which I shared with the world that "I wish I was never born". When I woke the next morning and peeled my face off the key board I found that 13 people had responded by clicking they "like this". After checking failbook to make sure my humiliation wasn't immortalized I quickly removed the comment and spent the morning running up and down my hall way until I felt sick.

I am also reminded of a botched trip to Magic Mountain as a teenager. I seated myself on a roller-coaster and pulled the shoulder guards down to their locked position. I had no idea how vulnerable I had just made myself until I saw a figure rushing towards me. As he came closer I realized this person to be biggest asshole at my school. I tried to squirm out of my seat but with my arms trapped I was totally defenseless. The next thing I remember were the quick flashes of knuckles as they repeatedly made contact with my face. It was only when the ride finally started moving that I was able to escape.

It is difficult to to relive these memories as they make me twitch and squirm whenever they come to mind. The reason I am bringing all this up is because as bad as those memories were they cannot compare to the night I slept in my bed while my camera recorded outside my bedroom window.